It was October 16th of 2015

Twas an overcast and drizzly morning.  Not that it’s an excuse but a relatively stressful morning/day at work.  After already cheating on the previous day, or day 1 of quitting; dave ran to the shop nearest his work to purchase a pack of cigarettes.  His first thoughts were “Here we are again, 2015…the year of quitting smoking….again.”

He’d already gotten his brother on board to sponsor and support dave on his journey of quitting by way of weekly phone calls, and putting up with his craving induced rage filled rants via text message.  The phone calls and rants that would never be; well, at least until this final back is completed, or when the clock resets.

dave is now faced with a choice, to N.O.P.E out, and destroy the evidence, as if nothing ever happened.  He knew he’d be lying to both himself and his brother, which made this a non-starter.  His second option of course would be to admit to his brother and face the shame and disappointment of failing so soon.  This second option while not great, dave decided was preferable to the former.

But the problem remains.  What to do with the final pack???

I had mentioned previously that 2015 was the year of quitting for dave, and throughout the year dave tried a number of methods.  In the way of NRT he tried the patch with moderate success, he actually did quite well with this method, but was not stubborn enough to see it through to the end.  Eventually he succumbed to his weakness, and shook hands with devil again.

Some months later, he quit “cold-turkey”, or so they say…this worked slightly less better than the patch, but still his confidence did receive a boost, knowing that he could inevitably with enough will-power remain N.O.P.E (Not One Puff Ever), not that he did, but that he could; this was important, and a milestone in retrospect.

Next up, cold-turkey again, this time however dave became aware of  Upon getting acquainted with this resource, he realized that it would be better to do so prior to actually quitting.  “Another excuse.  I’m full of them” he thought.

So…what to do with the final pack???  Well, it’s now down 14 cigarettes, but still…”what do i do with them?  after all they burn pretty fast…maybe i just smoke them?”.

For now dave has decided to go back to and start from scratch.  He will need to face the music with his brother at some point in the near future.  dave dreads that first phone call from his brother, without a doubt.


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